It
really baffles me how the further into life I go, the more of my most gorgeous
and most admired girlfriends come out with low self-esteem issues.
It
scares me as I am someone who is often regarded as really happy, really lucky
and I think I am, as much as I can be. I try to squeeze everything I can out of
life, I try to make it more exciting when things are getting grim. But I could
never say that my life is super-happy, it is so far away from those happy girls
on instagram who #lovelife.
I
must mention, I’m not stupid – I know a lot of it is fake and hyped-up. But
those words don’t really make me feel better. When it used to be just
celebrities in magazines and on TV it was fine. But now it’s ‘real’ people.
People like you and me, but the difference is they’re uber happy.
And
I feel awful, because I come across as if I’m complaining. All I want to say is
that firstly, I want to be honest about how I feel. Secondly, I believe this
topic is still not discussed loud enough. And lastly, it helps to feel like I’m
not alone, when I read other bloggers’ posts, so hopefully I can help someone
feel better too.
I struggle with self-love quite a bit.
It's so difficult sometimes, that I don't even admit to myself that I need to
love myself more, because I don't deserve even my own love. Ouch!
But the truth is, who will ever be able
to love us if we don't love ourselves? If you love yourself, you'll have rays
of confidence streaming out of you and you will attract love from other people.
And I understand that, which is why my main goal for 2015 is to love myself. I
know that there are a lot of people who struggle with it, so I wanted to share
the main things that I will be focusing on.
Some of these I already do and they help
me feel better about myself - good old sense of achievement. And the other I
really struggle with and I battle through my days trying to get better at it.
